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I think I'm becoming more and more anti-social. Somehow. I'm getting more and more people telling me how quiet I am and that I should open up to people. Or rather, strangers.

Everytime, without miss, I'll be sitting at one corner, looking at other people talking and laughing away. I'll be alone, keeping quiet. And noone notice. Em. I think people DO notice that I'm quiet. And just yesterday, I was given the name 小静 (Quiet Little?) because the one who gave me the name thinks I'm quiet. o_o Right. And on the way back, think he tried to strike a conversation with me but heck, I was looking down all the time. -_-

Now that I think back, yea. I was very quiet then. Attended 4 lessons and managed to talk to less than 3 people. That's how pathetic I am.

I used to be noisy. Yea, but only to people I'm close to. Where are those people now? Why do I have the feeling that, that I made the wrong choice? I used to think that dream > everything. And now? What happened? I don't know.

I'm not sure if it's the conversation that we had. Think what he said had affected me in one way or another. =/ Yea, now I realise I'm really not a sociable person. I don't party. I don't have any fun that normal young people should have. I don't like noisy place. His so-called principles are different from mine. We are different. Really. I can never be the kind of friend that you want. I didn't mention this conversation right after because I want things to remain the way they were.

I need someone to talk to.

Haven't been talking to anyone face-to-face for days.

P/S : I'm not emoing k. It's just something that I've been thinking for days. It's still unsolved but yea, no worries. Everything will be okay, as I always say! ~.~

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