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Do you know how hard it is to be sandwiched in between? I feel as if I'm double faced, you know that? I wish that you can understand why I pulled off. Why can't you try to understand? I got other commitments and that is MY choice. I got the rights to decide what I really want. Why would I give up something that I've been longing to do for years? I wouldn't say that if you're a friend, then you should let me do what I want. Nonsense. It's my decision, heck care about others.

I really hope that you would just stop making sarcastic remarks. I hate it. I just hate anything that sounded sarcastic. I'm sorry if what you said wasn't meant to be sarcastic at all, but it really did sound sarcastic to me. At least, to me, yes. Don't force me into doing what I don't want to do. If I don't want to do it, I mean it. I. Don't. Want. To. Do. It.

I don't talk to you? Well, I did, but I was told off. So what's the point right? No point no point. I told you that I've been through all these shit before and I don't wanna go through these again. How many times do I have to repeat?? I wanna pull off early so that I don't get hurt. Do you understand? I don't want to go through all these shit ever again. I'm tired of all these.

I guess I just don't feel easy talking to you after what had happened. And thanks a lot for the sarcastic remarks. They didn't help either. =)

I guess my definition of "a friend" is different from yours. Yes, a friend would go to any extent just to help. I was that friend to you before. Yea, but I'm tired of being that kind of friend. Especially when... I felt that what I did was just... a waste. Not appreciated at all.

The mosaic fragments? I don't understand. I just don't. You have your mosaic fragments, I probably have mine too. I am not perfect, nobody is.

If being a friend is that tiring, then I guess, I might as well don't be one.

I ain't strong. I wish I didn't bother.

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